The worst birthday present in my whole life .

i hope in the future there wont be black & white photos for all the post=x My life is aint colourful anymre just black and white.

I cant stop crying.I know i have already say many times.But this time round he's for real.Cause of what?Woman?Why?Cause he lonely!SO am i not??In this past 1yr i been asking him want divorce anot?But nv did he want ,he cried.So i waited for him all this while.I waited for him grow up,be mature.I always think that when its time he will back to me & reyez.But nv did i expect this 1yr he still the same and he came back tell me.He in love with other gal.Ask me what i will do?
Are you kidding?Is you should ask yourself not me.He den say why not we 3 tgt.U share me with her?:'[ And we could go out tgt?(heartbreak till dunno wad already!!)Cause i always think he will be back,he will realise he just fool around.And i willing to start afresh treat it as nothing happen.All i get is he LOVE HER MORE THAN ME!!& Why alan why k u please tell me why?
You everything never tell me ,and u ask me dun keep ask the same qns.The problem is you didnt even tell me clearly.I waited for you this 1 yr all i get is your betray!!AND i married to you so long,do you ever bring me go honeymoon??YOU ASK URSELF!!And you went overseas with the slut.HOw sad am i ??I am here so xinku taking care of reyez & U HAVE FUN WITH HER.YOU KEEP SAY ITS NOT THE TIME TO VISIT REYEZ.I FINALLY KNOW WHY!CAUSE U BZ ENTERTAIN N PL,AYING WITH HER UR NEW GF.THIS TRIP ONLY U HER WENT FOR IT.U ALL SHLD BE ''SLPING'' IN THE SAME ROOM.I not even worth than the 35yr old slut?WHEN U ''WITH'' HER ,DO YOU EVER THINK OF ME,UR WIFE??YOU BETRAYED OUR MARRAIGE AND MY LOVE FOR YOU.What happen to you,you tell me?Just because she gave you money support you ..you can give up our marraige!!Fuck i tell you!eat soft rice?i dunno.

I was so stupid .I agree to share but in the end the ugly bitch dont want right?And u ''respect'' her.U dump me.In the end ,you choose her.When i have already give in .I willingy to share!:'''(
Why you again stabbed another knife in my heart again!!?You completely change.Even how i give in ..you take me as granted.I take it.


CAn i ask you why you choose my birthday 3days before you visit reyez?And u came celebrated my birthday.I think you proporsely want me FOREVER RMB YOU RIGHT?Want me sad forever.U think is fun?N u tell me that GAL U ANTIME BREAK WITH HER OSO NO PROB!But now?Oh i forget maybe when u sick of her den u dump her.Ouch!Sry to say it out.


WHat i want say now i think u also treat it as i deserve it.I keep cor you.I really want back our r/s,our marraige!I put in effort.You treat it as shit.I contact u not because of reyez,the reason is simple.Just because i simply love you too much!I also dunno why no matter how u hurt me i oso love you.
I always rmb ytd even how SAD i cried.I still rmb i cried from morning to night!!No joking.All people in the school knows!Some even cried with me !N no joke oso this.Why even an outsider tears for me.And you.After all i waited this 1year..u came back saying u want go u in love with her.No matter how hard i cry.U so cold suddenly.N there these words keep flashing thru my mind.YOU 1st time shouted at me wakeup la xueting FACE THE FACT!U nv done this to me before.I completely shattered just this. and u just dump me 1wrd ''no feeling with me''.I cried ''please please can we start over again ..k we?''i beg you!
And he stabbed my heart again.Please la even how u cried we also impossible.Cause of the gal?U k forget our r/s.Who was the one who accompany you thoughout when u met an accident?After your leg recover..u k treat me this way.Are you human?All those sweet memories we did in the past..how k u forget??He say in a impatient voice.You can also just put it dwn & find anther guy.So irresponsible.YOU RUINED MY LIFE.you noe?NOT EVEN A SRY FROM YOU.U only noe how to blame me.

u this jerk!Take this_l_!!muthafucker.Are you human?I bear you a child rmb??U say u will take care of me forever and ask me dont cry 2yrs ago..RMB!!!????????Why?Just why ?you a completey change person now.Even i asked you please turn back my hubby..please!You ask me enough ..asked me stop my nosensene.I really dont understand what you all guys did that make you love her so much maybe you're just honey moon period.

During this 1 yr.I been asking want divorce?Please dont drag is hurting me, u noe? this 1yr u keep sae u headache ..u dunno wad to do.Now after u found urself a woman.U dump me away.In the 1st place u been playing with me.You treated me as substitution.

To alan tan:I finally know even how i want you back ..i sae so much.I give in. I willin share!I ask ed you turn back.All i get is ur coldness towards me.You keep want hang up the phone n go meet her.I even want to own a house ..i gg pay for it.You just come stay with me n reyez.All i get now is your blame on me now not even a sry for what u done to me.SAD!!YOU NEVER TURN BACK AGAIN.Den i noe you already gone.The one i love most ..he's gone.Now i dunno who are you anymre.BUT!!I will always love you still!Please rmb i always ur wife.





U created a blog n say so untrue.You lie to me..u lied to the people reading your blog.Even there's so many evidence now.You still lie.I dont know why.We already in this state.I see no point you still wana hide anything.You're nv honest with me ..not even once.This is so hurt.I thought i k overcome when he say he dun love me anymre.But im not.Im not so strong.I completey fail!!This is a hard fall.Here i wana thanks my school classmate ..really they sent me msg ..cor me console me.They even CARE!Im so touched.Not forgetting si jia!!She will be with me whenever i on call with alan.She's the one who always around me ..sayang me asked me dun sad.But friends !I know you guys care.I just need some times.MAyb 6yrs?7yrs?10yrs?I dont know.So if u guys seeing me crying at a corner you know why..dont ask just console will do.

To the pua cb :You woman.I also woman.Cant you understand how i feel?He havent even sae divorce to me.And you agreed to be his gf !wtf.Sae nice is gf ..sae not nice is cheap mistress somemore u support him. Please la..Wakeup ..he can do this to me..he can also do the same thing back to you . When he sick of you & when he find anther new gal,He will dump u.Trust me.He will continue lie.When u fall in his trap u will be like me .Already too late.

ps:Reyez was so sweet!He wiped away my tears and trying to be nice by stop his naughty acts for few mins.He really know what happen!!I love you my sweet boy.You're a gift from heaven.